I am very empty
Why?

My good days are gone
My bad days are here
Happy left on a train
Sad is here to stay

Itchy

Last night, I wanted to cut really bad
but I couldn't
so I cried

Time is infinite

But the Doctor has no time for me

New beginning

I just finished unpacking at my mom's house.
My dad told me to get everything and not to come back.
I guess if this was back then, it would hurt, but I found out what family really feels like, and the value I have for that makes his bitterness seem like nothing.
I called my boss, I might move in with him for the school year. Im not worried at alll..I feel liek I can do it all. School was never a problem and now family is great. My priorities are better, and Im less hollow nowadays. My step dad is extremely nice too..I wonder why I was so snobby around him before...time to correct my mistakes.

Haven't been here forever

Ah sorry.
Super hectic lately. Graduating soon, which is relieving.
That night I got kicked out really opened my eyes. I felt liek I could finally breathe? I didn't need them.
Grandma weighed me.super awkward. Its always smart to drink lots of water before visiting nosey relatives. Either way, I should probably gain. People think Im a little kid.
I haven't cut much lately, I guess it was just too selfish to see my mom hurt.
I think the anti-depressants are helping, but Im not sure. Im not as hopeless and always wanting to die or run away.

Hope hope hope. Hope is good.

Im not psychotic, I have to remind myself that?
Aha that probably means Im psychotic if I have to convince myself otherwise.

Monsters

Some people look like monsters
Some monsters look like people
Fairy tales exist to give us comfort
We make lies become truths
Truths become madness
Sometimes things are blurred
Because we never know who the monsters are

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No more depressing





So because of all the mayhem lately, I'm semi being kicked out, and moving down to my Mother's.
Which is not all that bad because my whole entire life I never really lived with her before.
It'll be a new expierience.

Well we went to wolflodge for spring break, and thats an indoor water park..which made thigns super awkward because I had cuts all over my stomach, thighs and arms...and Im wearing a two piece..and everybody looks at me like a walking suicide corpse....and my excuse is I fell on the playground. Ugh.

Look at my pale legs! Oh and these are like..the only people I know ..that lives in my mom's area.